Not Yet

Infertility is hoping that you are just being told “not yet” instead of “no.” It’s trying anything, everything again and again because you can’t give up hope that one day the answer you hear will be “yes.”⠀

This was not our one day. This was still not our yes.⠀

We have always been honest about our infertility journey. We’ve invited people in - for support and to give a voice to this disease. That doesn’t stop now. So, I’m here to share that we got the word that our one fighting embryo is not actually viable. Abnormal. Missing multiple chromosomes. Not compatible with life.⠀

It was a girl.⠀

Which was certainly the hardest part to hear. It made her more real. It gave shape to the dreams I had for our little embryo. Dreams that will not come to be. It was also the sweetest part to hear. Because it made her more real.⠀

We are still processing this news - grieving and wondering why. We don’t know. We probably won’t ever know.⠀

What we do know is that we have a GOOD Father. One who is marching through this with us knowing how He will work it all for our good, for His glory.⠀

We know that we are not alone. We are incredibly grateful for everyone who has supported us on this journey. More thoughts soon, but for now, thank you for lifting us up and loving us through another “not yet.”